November 1, 2013:  Trying to find a job has been weighing very heavy on myself and my family.  It seems to be very hard for me and those that are close to me to understand exactly why I haven't found a job yet.  I wonder if there is more I should be doing, what else I could do, or where to go and who to see.  After 51 years of building relationship, networking and getting connected with the latest social media and age old handshakes, I am struggling to understand the storm I am going through.  I can see clearly most of the mistakes I have made over the years and I believe I have truly learned volumes from those choices.  However, I also see the value of them and wouldn't trade my years of experience nor would I go back.  I would love to know the end result; do I get a job?, will it be a decent job?, will be successful at it?, will it provide my family a living?  so many questions that are left unanswered to me and my family, BUT God has the answers, He knows each and every step He has planned for me,  (Ps, 139)  To God be the Glory!  I have needs, a job is one of them, He has promised to supply our needs.  I know whom I have believed in and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I have committed unto Him against that day! (2 Tim. 1:12) I have concerns, I have worries, and I am very fearful, and all around me seems silent, not a peep from friends, business acquaintances, the Church, etc.... but I guess the most horrifying silence I hear is                      from my God and Savior.

O God, Almighty God everlasting! how dreadful is the world! behold how its mouth opens to swallow me up, and how small is my faith in Thee! . . . Oh! the weakness of the flesh, and the power of Satan! If I am to depend upon any strength of this world - all is over . . . The knell is struck . . . Sentence is gone forth . . . O God! O God! O thou, my God! help me against the wisdom of this world. Do this, I beseech thee; thou shoulds't do this . . . by thy own mighty power . . . The work is not mine, but Thine. I have no business here . . . I have nothing to contend for with these great men of the world! I would gladly pass my days in happiness and peace. But the cause is Thine . . . And it is righteous and everlasting! O Lord! help me! O faithful and unchangeable God! I lean not upon man. It were vain! Whatever is of man is totering, whatever proceeds from him must fail. My God! my God! dost thou not hear? My God! art thou no longer living? Nay, thou canst not die. Thou dost but hide Thyself. Thou hast chosen me for this work. I know it! . . . Therefore, O God, accomplish thine own will! Forsake me not, for the sake of thy well-beloved Son, Jesus Christ, my defence, my buckler, and my stronghold.
Lord - where art thou? . . . My God, where art thou? . . . Come! I pray thee, I am ready . . . Behold me prepared to lay down my life for thy truth . . . suffering like a lamb. For the cause is holy. It is thine own! . . . I will not let thee go! no, nor yet for all eternity! And though the world should be thronged with devils - and this body, which is the work of thine hands, should be cast forth, trodden under foot, cut in pieces, . . . consumed to ashes, my soul is thine. Yes, I have thine own word to assure me of it. My soul belongs to thee, and will abide with thee forever! Amen! O God send help! . . . Amen!
- Martin Luther